Monday, January 30, 2006

Yeah I have been an active blogger for past 24 hrs. Anyway It has been what six blogs from my last bullshit blog. Yeah I call it that. But atleast I am writing only the bullshit I think up. And people have found out all kinds of uses for bullshit.

Some are so so innovative. Anyway coming back to what I had in my mind.

This is on a topic which many have asked. I will try to put up some kind of an answer to that. It might not be complete but I hope it'd be a good one.

" This is due to a conversation I had with Ashok"

Why do we need to communicate?

My first answer was maybe because of my insecurity feeling, that is if I had any. Meaning people communicating to get over there feeling of insecurity.

Then the angle of approach to the problem changed to one of survivability. Where as far as concerned, communication helped in making the memebers of a single species itself act as a bigger loosely connected organization. Where the loose connection was based on the ability to communicate.

Many might say the world has moved much forward from that time. But I beg to differ that all that has changed is our data about this world and they way we live in it. But now how we are alive in it.

We are alive because of the society. A lone man doesnt usually have the necessary resources or skill to live off by himself. So its communication which tightens the bond which binds and connects him to the society. It might be the same bond which restricts to some extent and causes to some extent his improvement. He improves in areas where the society is advanced than him and his improvement is impeded where the society is not.

But all said and done I dont think the above said reasons are completely satisfactory.

Meaning our necessity to communicate might be closely related to our ability to think . Then again might be not.


This Is a post about my musical inclinations.
I am not exactly an avid music lover. I like the instrumentals more than the lyrics.

I like Carnatic, Hindustani Classicals. Brought up on songs by yesudas its no big deal that I like carnatic. I usually dont remember the name of the song. I just hear them.

Among Indian Music directors ofcourse Rahman is the best bet for a good tune :D.

I love drums. So Its only natural that I like those tabalas , mridangams and Chendas.
I love flute too. Its music is usually so hauntingly beautiful, ofcourse if played by a maestro.
Violin I love only the performance of "Kunnakudi Vaidyanathan". He is a true maestro unparalleled.

Then comes the fusion scene, NO I dont know even one of their names. Its about the cross between those guitars and tablas which sounds so so nice.

After this I think its about Micheal Jackson. yeah I do love most of his songs. I love the beats with which he makes them.

Then comes ROCK :D Yeah yeah I am a big fan of rock. I dont like pop much. And dont tell me Linkin Park is rock.
The no of bands I like are few. But it does include a nice collection.

Pink Floyd.
Ozzy .

I like creed also to an extent.

anyway some other rock bands are also ok by me.

To an extent I like techno and trance. Pink Floyd and Ozzy are cool. I lik'em But metallica and Rammstein seems to be the two which really drives me :D.

Sunday, January 29, 2006

I have forgiven, starting to forget a particular incident. Initially my reaction was one of anger at the percieved injustice.

I realized that everybody is human. They commit mistakes.(yes there was a mistake and it was not from my part). I am moving forward, no point in dwelving on past. It will only result in me being stressed out a lil more.

The good part is that I enjoyed what I did yesterday. Saw a group of enthusiastic juniors. I was really happy seeing the work they had done. Actually more impressed by them than anything else actually.

Way to go Guys.

Short 1 indeed.

This is a post clarifying about the cupids blog.

Its actually most important part.

What I want in a girl, as many, someone who can walk( i walk pretty fast too) by my side my whole life.

Its easier said than done and I am a fast paced person.

In short "I want someone whom I dont need to drag by or someone who will drag me with her".

Friday, January 27, 2006

Am I really !

I didnt think the choices given where really the right type to identify an atheist most proabably written by a "theist".
Still the result is what one expects.

You are an Atheist

When it comes to religion, you're a non-believer (simple as that).
You prefer to think about what's known and proven.
You don't need religion to solve life's problems.
Instead, you tend to work things out with logic and philosophy.

Wednesday, January 25, 2006


Run for cover theres a tag coming this way.

Now where did I put that.

Ah here its
I have been tagged by Ashok(No I cant link the URL :().
He asked me to write 8 points about my perfect lover so here are the eight points:

Rules of the game are …
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
2. Need to mention the sex of the target.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their comments saying they’ve been tagged.
4. If tagged the 2nd time, there’s no need to post again.

Sex of the target : Female

My perfect lover should be:( Oh thinking a lot about the word perfect)
( one or two points i could have tried but my my eight, it would be difficult even for those so called guys with the perfect love I think)


(1) She "should be"(means might be not) someone with guts.
(2) She "should be" able to accept people for what they are and not for what they ought to be.
(3) She should be practical, optimistic and pragmatic.
(4) She should have a striking personality.
(5) She should have a wild streak in her character.
(6) She should be ready to think out of the box and keep an open mind.
(7) She should have a lot of energy.
(8) Last but not the least an inherent capability to wake me up with out turning my mood sour :p. That would be a real tough challenge.

So, the eight bloggers who are tagged by me are:
Hey you there under the table come out. Yes come out and line up. What!!!
What did you say.
You wont. How dare you? Do you know who I am? Oh You do, I see. Is there any way I can bring you out? oh. Hmm that means these guys will have to return empty handed. Thats not nice of you guys. Really bad.

See I did All that I could but :( those names just wont come out tell me an idea to coax them out. Me ready to try it out :), Seriously.


I am not a man who can write what he feels onto a sheet of paper neither a blog. The best I can do is I can present the facts. I dont have that narratorial ability which keeps the reader interested.

Yes I am Tired. No no its not the usual type. Meaning This time I am physically tired. Past one week has been, what ,more than hectic. I was onto the project. I was not eating well, sleeping well and not even thinking well. I was in a kind of haze.

What I did was simply do the stuff for my project. usuallY I dont start this early for a project.Yeah I do the literature survey but this was not usual. But Mind you I enjoyed every moment of it. I did the whole thing with Auster.

Anyway coz of my connection becoming ADL 128kbps I have not blogged much. Its because of the difficulty in opening this damn page.

I have a lot of new Ideas to share with you. I dont know whether I will. Right now I feel like sleeping for a week. The only real problem with projects is They turn you mad, well atleast almost to the edges of sanity. Where we invent new techniques which border on insanity to remain sane.

See the last sentance was a point in case of my statement that it really does drive you mad.

Anyway I hope to be back to my ol form :D. Me almost dropping to sleep. Now thats not a new thing Considering the fact that I have dropped to sleep a couple of time in teh last week :(

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Failing Sanity

This something some might agree on and some might not. For some I am the guy who has his head in the clouds all the time and for some others I am the most practical and ruthless guy around.

As for me I percieve only a slight difference between the two. The edge of reality and illusion is always foggy. Tread those paths lightly.

For the last four years nothing much special has been happening to me. I didnt achieve anything or rather I did lose a lot of things. Its funny that from a systematic system i came to system where the rot has set in completely. I wondered what I should do in the system.

Finding no satisfiable answer I did nothing more.

So all these past years has been about me tryin to find more of myself so that I could act better, react better. Anyway For a third person this is not much of an Achievement rather its simply a waste of time.

From that perspective, all the time Ispend on introspection should have been used for something constructive where as I hav used it only for somethings which are not good for anyone in their view.

I beg to take a different stance. I for one have known more about myself and others in the past four years than in the past eighteen years. I wont assume that mine understanding of myself is complete, rather how much I understood before is paltry when compared to the present.

On the flip side my ideas has started to grow. It has become more complex and larger. I sometimes feel suffocated by these very ideas ,which also intoxicates me. Sometimes i fear maybe I am loosing sanity. I have nothing at present which roots me to sanity.

No worldly love, except for life. When this love is also gone........

If I have to live in this society as a part , which i dearly love at present and detest too, I need to feel more passionately for people. I used to be a passionate person. I still am Passionate, But at times I feel so cold that I shiver. The cold comes from my heart, as Camus said "the Divine indifference".

I need something to root me back. I am in a desperate search for it. It might be an ambition that fires my imagination or Some person who fires my passion ( it could mean a lover or a friend. Latter might be more probable, I feel) The possiblity is thin. But we all need some hope.

If I continue I fear somewhere deep down that I might loose my sanity. When i loose that fear I will have lost my sanity.

Monday, January 09, 2006


Your Birthdate: July 10

Independent and dominant, you tend to be the alpha dog in most situations.
You're very confident, and hardly anything ever shakes you.
Mundane tasks tend to drain you - you prefer to be making great plans.
You are quite original. When people don't "get" you, it bothers you a lot.

Does It? I dont know

Your strength: Your ability to gain respect.

As for me I dont think This is the truth.

Your weakness: Caring too much what others think.

My weakness is that I dont accept my weaknesses. Get what I mean eh?
Your power color: Orange-red

Your power symbol: Letter X

Your power month: October

Sunday, January 08, 2006

"The Stranger"

This is a story by Camus I just read. It's been a wonderful experience. I have read many a stories but this appealed to me the most.

It has really affected me at present. Thats the only reason I am blogging.

The whole story is about a man who does thing's through logic without any pretending. And as he is devoid of these those around him cant see what he is. It was truly an experience. I had heard of this story before.

It had a feel like kafka's something not transient. Where each moment is etched to our mind. Where the working of the protagonist's mind is transparent to us. And You start to think like the character. I dont know how to put my emotions about the story exactly.

Still it was something I would ask everyone to try to read. If anyone wants it just ask me.